I cried and cried
At the beauty
Of sadness and happiness
And love

And the ache in a part of
You that isn’t quite physical
That says you feel

And even if you’re okay because
“you’re only human,” reject
This, because these days
Humanity is synonymous
With the mindless superficial
Pop-culture mob.
I want to soar above and
Surpass and avoid all expectations-
Express myself to the
Fullest.

But also curl up and
let the music talk for me and
For you to hug me like
A pet, child, or pillow

I want to cry my
Eyes out some more.

I guess I was upset at
You for not being able to
Give a better reason then
“I don’t know” and mad
At myself for giving the
Exact same reason
Sometimes things just don’t
Sometimes they don’t
And sometimes they don’t
Sometimes they might do
isn’t the idea fascinating
That it wont be meaninglessly
Grey like time’s flow
And not one after the
Other, sometimes unpredictable

love hate                                hate love
                                I
love love                                hate hate

It doesn’t make sense
Not at all, I just
Said it to confuse me,
Confuse
                Like misunderstanding
Yes you even tricked me
Without trying or meaning to
I salute you and you
Get confused, maybe hurt,
Horrified or offended